searching for an act of completion


being on the aa2a scheme has given me the time and space to research something that was of interest following my snee snaw project.  i've come a long way with the research and at times i have found it hard not to be hard on myself for not being that far on, even though i've done so much work.  i might be disappointed in myself, i might be disappointed in something else.

ok.  having done the "wow is me" drama queen type activity i can get beck to the practical nature of wanting to work to a conclusion.  as the weather is improving i am going to take my research once again outdoors to use two actual swings with the work i've done in the studio.  my intention is to make a small film to punctuate the point of the completion of the aa2a scheme.

when i set out on the path of the research i was setting out on an enquiry into wether or not i could do something, based on a response to my previous work.  the challenge has proven to be larger than i had anticipated and i have been very close to walking away from it all on several occasions.  walking away is easy and if i did walk away it would be a larger failure than if i made something that i didn't like that much.  i have to admit to at times not liking what it is that i'm making.  the good thing about not liking it, once i've realised i don;t like it, is that i can work to resolve the unlikeness to turn it around to become something i do like.  that almost feels like an advice thing waiting to happen.

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